There are many occasions in life when you have to try new things and with exploration it's rare you'll find a warm approach. Exploration to me conjures up uncertaintity, untravelled, prepared for the unknown. I'm about to enter an Ice Age, metaphorically speaking. I'm going to do it naked too. With some very dramatic changes that I'm soon going to be making in my life and decisions that will impact the next 12 months quite a lot I'm going to be at my most unguarded, unprotected but, you know what, my most happiest.
My career is going to change, it has already changed for the better and now I'm able to put my hand to things that will help strangers, friends and hopefully family too. I'm not going to pretend I'm free from fear and doubt but only because I'm human and I know my emotional limitations and weaknesses. I'm a little scared but with fear and uncertaintity grows some of my strengths - self humility, the ability to take responsbility for actions and accountability for my mistakes and then laugh full-on heartedly at each one of them. Also enthusiasm, being unsure of something can only mean a few things: research, education and exploration - all of which set alight my passions and invoke my creativity.
I'm going to call it my ice age... starting with very little but working with new collaborations and communities to build up a new brand called Jeanes that's hopefully a little smarter, perhaps a little more clever but definitely wiser and more experienced. I'm going to thaw dormant passions, heat up cooling visions and say 'yes' more often.
London will be my house but the world will be my playground. I refuse to let the impact of todays economic climate be a sedative in everything I want to achieve. I'm going to lay out some key goals and hit as many of them as I can. I will because I want to, not because I have to. I will encourage others to find home in London, integrate them into a new economy and a new community and, perhaps in the smallest way, help shape the world. I'm no miracle worker, rain-marker or peace-keeper. I'm a risk taker with limitations imposed by the laws of science and my vocabularly (come to think of it a lot of other things, but for poetic sake, sssshhh!).
So, I ask you. If there is anything you would like to do in 2009, what would it be? And will it be? I don't have to go it alone do I? It's bloody cold out there.
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